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♦ born and raised in manila, philippines - a texan since 2004.
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coffee + movies = semi-HAPPY me
semi-happy coz my baby is not around to snuggle with… normally, we would eat some fake chinese or heat up pizza & watch movies or The Walking Dead all night until i pass out right next to him. if not passing out, i’ll be eating ice cream (Ben & Jerry’s Strawberry Cheesecake) and will get some weird looks & head shaking from him. or sometimes he would just give some foot massage while watching tv.
ahhh why did you have to spoil me like that?!?!?!?!
thailand has been awesome. i was able to help out. i was able to make myself see a different side of life. i was able to learn new things i never thought i’d learn; being compassionate and hopeful. thais are very strong willed people & i honestly admire them especially the victims of flood. they lost a battle but it doesn’t show on their faces. they still wake up in the morning thinking they will get through it.
most of all, i appreciate everything i have even more; my family, my friends, my job, and my boyfriend. their love makes me a strong person.
aww i miss my baby already!!!
so i was thinking… how come love usually decides to come at the wrong time? i felt it with someone. it was good & sweet at that moment and it came to an end that none of us wanted. we had an agreement before he left. we will stay friends.
that didn’t happen as i hoped. i wanted to let go of him. i wanted to forget what we had. i didn’t want to expect & be disappointed.
six months later… all of a sudden he said he wanted to stay together when he left & shouldn’t have let me go & that he still cares. i’m not gonna lie, my heart fluttered. i was happy and at that moment my heart broke. i don’t know how to tell him i’m dating someone else. i’m still in the process of healing my broken heart & the guy i’m dating makes me happy & understands me & my past.
times like this make me wish i can just press the delete button. or maybe the pause button.
sean, i loved you but you broke my heart when you made me feel i wasn’t important to you and even so you’d still have a place in my heart. and it will never change. i may be stupid for feeling this way but i can’t lie & cheat my heart.
my legs are so sore. my arms feel weird. my heart hurts a little. BUT somehow through it all, a portion in my heart is happy. really happy!
today i got to shoot an M9 pistol. i did a Low Light shoot & a Practical Weapons Course (PWC — kind of like an obstacle course for beginners)…. i felt awesome!!! i got yelled at & ordered to do a lot of running and jumping jacks before we started the course — it reminded of boot camp! when i was doing the PWC, i felt so badass shooting at 3 different targets & pretending to be under attack.
all i can say is…. i CAN’T WAIT to cross-rate!!!
